I thought long and hard on what to write, not because I am short of things to write, but just because I have too much to write, so much going on in my head, emotions clouding certain topics, trains of thought that have parked themselves at certain mental stations and are not due to move for some time... So I thought to be safe.... Why not talk about the dawn of a new year, the opportunity to refocus, reinvent, a new chapter in the book of everyones life, the idea of Genesis in general, quite apt for the first day of the year I think.
01.01, The climax of the festive season, after all the mince pies, mulled wine, mistletoe, santas vomit at falomo roundabout (aka Christmas decorations, honestly what was elizabeth r thinking, if we wanted to know what it'd look like if santa vommed down the side of his sleigh we would've asked), fireworks, their local cousins bangers and knock out, carol services, tourists, fake accents, big weaves, champagne, ballin', shot callin', charity events, gift giving, gift receiving...It's all done, and now we have to think about making 2011's paper, analyse and evaluate 2010.
Every year end I try to de-clutter my life before I step into the new year. Release all the bad blood I have with anyone, de-clutter my room, refocus my life to better align with my goals, etc etc. Every year I fail. I never do any of those things. I enter the new year with the same enemies (I don't have enemies sha, I lurve everybody), my bedroom looks like "a drunk baby lion was let lose in it", I procrastinate about doing what I know I was built to do.....
....Why??????? The answer, quite simply put, though you are starting a new chapter, the other chapters are still part of the book.
In January I cried
In February I rebuilt
In March I redefined
In April I gave
In May I don't remember (probably not a good sign)
In June I smiled
In July I discovered
In August I laughed
In September I loved
In October I thought
In November I grew
In December I learnt
... And throughout the year I created memories.
The truth is that I didn't necessarily have an awesome, all great moments, stuff of fairytales, plenty jolofment year, but all the ups and all the downs of 2010 are still in my book, the pains, the joys, the frustrations, the successes, the failures, the disappointments, the what ifs, the why nots, the if only's, they have all built my character. Though today marks the genesis of 2011, I want to refocus, reengineer, start afresh, begin again, try something new, walk away from the past... but instead I will get back in the saddle, with the battle wounds, gold stars, and chest pins of 2010 and create an even better 2011.
I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and at the risk of my advice going "the way of the clog" ...in 2011 laugh till you cry, live like there is no tomorrow, love hard, make sure the people you love know you love them, cry, smile, give, and be grateful!
Xoxo
#serious-post (ma binu)
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